Jobless

As of Tuesday I am officially jobless. This was my choice. I have been applying out in the mental health field and anywhere else that is hiring. South Bay was not for me. They did not offer reimbursement for gas or phone. They didn't offer days off until one year has been put into the job. I also had to have clients that were all across the board with age and diagnoses. It took a big toll on my mental health and it was too difficult to be fully engaged in each client's case.

Life isn't about money but money is necessary in life. I need to pay off my school bills, phone bill, insurance, rent, food and car expenses. I have a lot in savings because I have always worked.... always. Since I was 14 I worked at Orbaker's as a waitress and at some points worked 2-3 jobs at a time and was a full time student and unpaid intern. I've always saved over half of what I've made and even started investing in stock and am watching that account increase in value. I know I am okay for at least a few months and that I have options if I don't find work soon such as moving in with friends/family and paying little to no rent. There are also my student loans that I am being allowed to defer due to unemployment and lowering payments on other bills.

My viewpoint is trying to see this all as part of God's plan. I keep getting pulled towards this as well as away from this viewpoint. I prayed one day about when to tell South Bay that I was quitting because I hadn't found any job to replace it yet. In the prayer I asked God to make it clear by having my supervisor straight out ask me if I was planning on leaving if God wanted me to put in my notice and it wasn't one hour after I said that prayer that my supervisor asked me about my future with the company. I put in my 4 week notice that day and sent my resume out to many companies every day following that. My first day of joblessness I had to bring my car to get checked out because my "check engine" light had been on for a week. God showed me that this was all in his timing... my car could have caught fire if I kept driving it much longer. Yes this will cost more money but not as much as if I was still working and had to cancel appointments and if I would have had to go to the hospital for any injuries from the car. I also had a new car waiting for me to use it while mine is in the shop. God keeps telling me to trust Him and so far, it hasn't been hard but I know as time goes on it may be more difficult.

My brother is also jobless and has labeled this time in his life as FUNemployment. This is something I'm trying to wrap my mind around. I never relax, I never even take time to do my hair or makeup and I make up excuses why I cannot workout or eat regularly scheduled meals but now I have no excuses. I have time to do devotions, read leisurely in the tub, visit old friends, cook balanced meals and workout regularly. I am trying to see this as a blessing and still look for work and manage bills and deferments.

I'm not sure how blogs work but I wanted to share what was on my mind and where I am with this jobless thing. I also hope that when I go home and family asks "so how is the job hunt going?" I can tell them to read it on my blog so I don't have to talk about it when I am relaxing for the holidays. :)